SLUT vs WHORE

I've often told guys who called me a 'whore' that they were wrong. My reply would be, "I'm a slut..........I never charge."

But while IM'ing w/Tallmaster, he jarred something in my memory that I had forgotten (maybe surppressed?). I did sell myself. Once. .....and then attempted, in a fashion, three other times.

The once was in college. I was 19. I answered some fucked-up ad - a guy pimping via the classifieds. Ok - I can't say I wasn't intrigued, and I was in college - so what college kid doesn't need the money??? And it was money for something I did for free anyway. I personally don't think all prostitution or porn is exploitation.

I answer the ad (days before internet). The guy (who is out of state, mind you) and I have a good rapport. To be honest - I don't think it will go anywhere. How is he gonna find johns in Columbus, OH?? Lo and behold, 2 days later he had something for me: two guys @ a hotel. The deal was - $120 in cash and I was to send the pimp 40% of it. I go there and the guys are middle-aged (couple? I don't know) and decent looking. No one knew exactly how to start. I think it was their first time hiring out as it was mine being hired. Nothing spectacular about the encounter at all. One guy fucked me while the other guy watched - then I blew the 2nd guy. They were good about the payment - as I was not sure how to ask for it. But on the drive home, I thought "hey, I have $120 bucks!" which is a shit load of money to a college student at any given time.

I'm sure I blew my chance at business - but I never sent the 40% to anyone. I kept it all.

But the opportunity came up again while I was doing an internship in NYC. Reading the Village Voice I came across a similar ad. I called. The guy told me to come over. I hopped a subway to the West Village and arrived at the appointed time (1op on a friday). The guy wasn't too bad looking and he went through any deal breakers of what guys he'd set me up with. Again, I was a broke student.

This guy was smart and had me try out - if you will. Maybe it was a scam - I don't know. He led me back into a room where some guy was waiting. Fat guy. Nekkid. He had me blow him. While I did, he pulled out his dick and pushed it into me. 9" of fat meat. I won't say I took it like a pro- but I proved I could do what was needed. I never got a call back for 'work'.

I tried to supplement my lack of income by 'auditioning' for two different adult movie companies. (To be honest - the movies weren't aboout money - but about the ego a scrawny 20 yo w/a big dick has and the desire for attention.) Again - VV ads directed me there. The one was ok. Express trains from Wall St to upper west side after work in a hurry to make my appt. Nothing exciting. Polaroids of my hard dick...and body. That was it.

The second one was more of the same. Some more detailed questions. I was pretty much told I wasn't of use to them though due to bacne. My face was pretty clear - but I had issues w/some nasty acne on my back. Though the guy interviewing me liked my still 8+". He just looked at it and licked his lips.

I could have gone along w/his suggestion - and maybe shot myself in the foot by putting it away and zipping up. But he had already dinged me as a candidate for work. So if he wasn't paying me - I wasn't giving it up.

I guess that made me a whore. Not a slut.